I’m here to heal. And that means it’s time to dance.

Twenty-two years ago I tossed my dance shoes in the back seat.

Without looking back,

I drove away.

I held the tears with a set jaw and shallow breaths to ensure I would not break down.

I played loud music to drown out any feeling of sentiment, longing, or sadness.

I didn’t look back…

But I carried it.

And so began my young adult journey of pushing through.

There was no other way…

Do what you have to do.

Get right to it.

Stop feeling.

Suck it up.

Move forward.

Take care of everything and everyone just as you should,

without fail,

and keep going.

Succeed and strive for more.

Always.

Push your limits without slowing, resting, or paying attention.

To yourself.

That’s where you’ll find security and satisfaction.

This was wrong.

I became a defeated soul.

A tense spirit carrying things that kept me in this place.

Disappointed that life moves so fast.

A brittle soul being carried in a body that was exhausted, run down, and neglected.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this…

And then I decided.

I’d done my time.

I can’t stay here.

I wasn’t meant to.

I stepped up into what was unfamiliar and scary;

Myself.

Stories that I held onto for all of this time-

It’s selfish.

I can’t.

I have too many things to do.

Too many people are counting on me.

I just…

Don’t. Have. Time.

These were all untrue beliefs I carried with me.

My mind and body had become disconnected.

Dissociated…

Body-

I know you’re tired.

You can manage it.

Sleep less.

More caffeine.

Compensate-

With emotional eating,

spending,

And binging on whatever to fill the void and feel good.

RIGHT NOW.

It compounds.

Your body will rebel.

Quietly at first…

And then not.

Your mind can only believe and feed these things for so long.

It’s NOT something to squeeze in,

schedule once a month,

or put on a bucket list.

It’s a state of being.

It’s YOU…

ALL. THE. TIME.

It’s how you SHOW UP for your family.

Your co-workers.

Your partner.

YOURSELF.

How you manage your home,

finances,

spiritual and mental realms.

Taking care of yourself has EVERYTHING to do with paying attention.

To your body.

It wants to be heard.

It’s been paying attention to what you’ve carried.

Work with it.

Understand your feelings and let them flow.

Feel safe doing this.

Your body wants to let go.

It’s about your kids and families…

They are counting on you;

Trusting you will take care of yourself.

BE yourself.

I stepped even deeper into where I feel this most.

Most authentic.

Where I am free to BE.

The first words out of my mouth reflected my fears,

false narratives in my mind,

insecurities and lack of trust in my own self.

“I don’t remember anything.”

The response I got-

…“Your body remembers.”

And with deep breaths,

closed eyes and trust,

I danced.

I FELT it.

The release of what I buried twenty two years ago.

My body DID remember.

Not only what to do,

But what to feel.

Movement.

Release.

Strength.

Breath of LIFE.

No more rigid soul.

No more resistance.

No more holding it in.

My mind and body reconnected.

And in this moment I discovered home.

All in time…

I came home.

All in time…

I found where I need to live.

HOW TO BE.

HOW TO LIVE.

Life is not a solo show.

We are so interconnected with each other;

Neglecting our BEING touches EVERYTHING else we love.

It starts with you.

All In Time.

Free to BE-

Authentic.

Vulnerable.

Unapologetic.

Present.

Healthy.

A badass.

A bombshell.

Living in abundance.

Released from scarcity.

Released from past stories.

Healed.

Aligned.

This year I show up in more authenticity, vulnerability, and transformation.

For me.

My family.

My life.

My clients.

I know you hear me and want to begin your journey.

I am walking my talk, living it out.

You can too.

Be held in a space where there is no turning back.

It’s time to dance, friend.

Reach out.